Well, it's here. The day I have been dreading for quite some time now, has come. A day that, not too long ago, seemed so far off in the distant future.
The first day of kindergarten.
Gosh, I can't believe it is here, already. It was a hard day for me. I tried to not think about the long term, not think about how most of my daily activities, things we would always do to together, I will be doing with out him now, forever. I kept trying to think about it in a day by day point of view. To think about all the things I will be able to get done, that I otherwise won't be able to do with him around (well, as much as I can get done with a 1 yr old, thank goodness I still have him with me :)). That helped and I did get a lot of things done, but I still missed him. I tried to remember all the thousands of times he would drive me crazy, when I would wish him to be at school all day everyday, but all I could think about was how, that morning, he asked me if he could marry me because he never wants to leave me. Ah man, that little heart is mine and I will cherish it forever. I could just cry thinking about the sweet and pure innocent of childhood. Untouched by all the evil that surrounds us. I just want to keep him in a tiny bubble so he can keep that beautiful innocent forever. Yeah right, in comes reality, and the reality is that I just gotta have hope.
I am excited for him and so full of hope. Hope for his future. Hope for all the wonderful things he is going to learn, things I could never teach him. Hope for friends that will last a lifetime. Hope for teachers that can see the potential and give him the tools to exceed his dreams.
Oh, my sweet lil Finn, I love you so much and will only and always want the very best for you.
Go knock 'em dead, kid!!
xoxoxo
mama
