Well, it's here. The day I have been dreading for quite some time now, has come. A day that, not too long ago, seemed so far off in the distant future.
The first day of kindergarten.
Gosh, I can't believe it is here, already. It was a hard day for me. I tried to not think about the long term, not think about how most of my daily activities, things we would always do to together, I will be doing with out him now, forever. I kept trying to think about it in a day by day point of view. To think about all the things I will be able to get done, that I otherwise won't be able to do with him around (well, as much as I can get done with a 1 yr old, thank goodness I still have him with me :)). That helped and I did get a lot of things done, but I still missed him. I tried to remember all the thousands of times he would drive me crazy, when I would wish him to be at school all day everyday, but all I could think about was how, that morning, he asked me if he could marry me because he never wants to leave me. Ah man, that little heart is mine and I will cherish it forever. I could just cry thinking about the sweet and pure innocent of childhood. Untouched by all the evil that surrounds us. I just want to keep him in a tiny bubble so he can keep that beautiful innocent forever. Yeah right, in comes reality, and the reality is that I just gotta have hope.
I am excited for him and so full of hope. Hope for his future. Hope for all the wonderful things he is going to learn, things I could never teach him. Hope for friends that will last a lifetime. Hope for teachers that can see the potential and give him the tools to exceed his dreams.
Oh, my sweet lil Finn, I love you so much and will only and always want the very best for you.
Go knock 'em dead, kid!!
xoxoxo
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Cate, this is a particularly poignant post for me. I knew you way back when you and my son were in the same first day of Kindergarten at Rockbridge. It was 1990, I believe. Isn't it so strange and wonderful to have the circle come 'round again? I know your mom can relate!
ReplyDeleteAnd now, as a Kindergarten teacher myself, I too hope that his teachers give him all the love and support he needs. Have a great year, Finn!
Karen, that is so sweet of you to write. It is so wonderful to be able to be a mama and go thru these adventures again, with a completely different perspective .
ReplyDeleteI didn't realize you're teaching Kindergarten!! Where are you?? Man, it would have been soooo wonderful to have YOU as his teacher! PLease tell Garrett hello for me :)
PS I hear Steve on NPR sometimes and always think of you :)
I'm at the Atlanta Neighborhood Charter School in Grant Park. It's an amazing place to be!
ReplyDeleteI am actually so fortunate to be working with 5 and 6 year olds. When Corey and Garrett were that age, I was in a corporate job and was not able to experience their younger years in school. Thankfully, I had neighborhood moms who were there for them. When you and Garrett were going to 4th grade, I left my corporate job and started working at Rockbridge ... that's when I realized that I should be working with children!
Now, I get to revisit those days of old ... vicariously and with new eyes!
PS ... Thanks for listening to Steve on NPR. I have a picture of you and Drew Ann from a Rockbridge Fall Fest that I will have to send you. He is in the dunk tank with you and Drew Ann!
I would LOVE to see it :)
ReplyDeleteI am glad you found your passion, those kids and parents are lucky to have you!! I always remember you as such a sweet and kind librarian :)